Let Me Tell You About The Special

Hey.

I just visit and open this blog (again) after a long years. It's so memorable.

And I found something beautiful in here. You know what? I think I'm really cool person, in my version. I knew it, I'm different, so I'm special, kinda :)

This blog has been 5 years (maybe). Do you believe that everything, everyone has to change? And I changed. But I think I'm still like Leny in 5 years ago.

This blog has strories about my feelings. And those feelings seem like my feelings right now. I think when I have some problems to survive in the lovely Earth, I'll do something like what I did in 5 years ago.

By the way, hallo, my name is Leny, and I'll try to tell about my feelings after a couple years I didn't write. Why? Because my feeling is complicated. No, it's not about the love story of a young couple, even I don't have a boyftriend.

It's about my life.



What will you do for your future?
Do you still dreaming?
How old are you?
Do you have any request from everything around you?

Hai.

I'm still studying as a collage student to get a bachelor degree. And this is my 9th semestre. I'm not really strong to survive it. And I don't really know what should I do. Ya, you're right. Just finish it. I still need a time to finish it.

People said,
High school is the best phase of our young life. They think.
Ya, sure. I've got lots of lessons and feelings.
I dare to myself to break my comfortable atmosphere and went to another strange planet.
I dare to myself to accepted the bullies in everyday (and everyday no one notice)
I dare to myself to pretend to be nice (but I'm actually not okay)
I dare to myself to be different.
And I dare to myself to take a chance to deliver my special feelings for someone.
It's really hard. But I passed it. Um, not yet. I mean, I'm still survive it.

Parents said,
My son/daughter, should be in the university. They think.
Ya sure. Almost of my high school's friends went to university. Me too.
But they had the same problem like me. What will you do after you've got bachelor degree? Of course, get a job. Ya, maybe I can be an architect after I passed it. Maybe. Just maybe or not to be an architect.

Parents said,
After you got a job, maybe you should fall in love with someone who really knows you, cares of you, makes you happy. But it's just what they say. They think about more expectation. The people who really loves you should loves each others family. Ya, my job replace to be a wife.
Got a new family.

People said,
Where's your sons? Where's your daughter? What's your son's name?
And I answer it, 'He's Dylan and the younger one is Dev.'

People said,
Are your parents okay? You're a good daughter. Just keep to take care of them, honey.
Ya, my sons really love their grandparents.


What will you do for your future? I doubt to be an architect, and I need two sons actually.
Do you still dreaming? maybe
How old are you? now, 22 years old
Do you have any request from everything around you? ya sure, I should be a good people for people.

Trust me, yes, my expectation about my life is simple, like other people. But, the process is authentically special. Cause I'm special.